It's been a LOONG time since I'm not here xD But I have my reasons (I hope someone reads this .w. ) and I have some issues to solve and that I hope I can fix them soon
The reasons of why I'm not doing sth are:
- My tablet it's kinda broken (yeah I broke the damn tablet in 2 motnhs )...Well it's broken and that sucks 'cuz I wanted to do something with it and now I cant >:c
-The previous reason it's stupid, so I'm stucked...Since a loong time ._. So I try to write and then it comes...That. I try to draw but nothing it's good.
Kinda more important
-I'm having 'classes' and I have to wake up 3 days at week at 5 am...And yeah, I sleep like 3 hours .-. And homework, and my english classes... ;-;
-The reason of why I'm so stucked is...A crush. More than a crush, sadly. I'm kinda in love with my teacher...(Hot For Teacher Well, no ) And h'es 17 years older than me. And there's the chance of him being gay (DAMMIT! XD). And I don't see him since 3 months and 8 days ;-; . And I'm thinking about him all the time and I feel like a sick person because of that >.< . And I try to relax myself with music but then, I found myself hearing the same music that he does...Grunge and Rock and Classic music and blah xdd And thaat, it's haaaaaaaaard ._.
-Well, there's also this, uuhm...Emotive? Dunno thing, I have personal problems and I have to deal with them, Yes, I have a problem and I should ask for older people help, but I don't like it so there's this thing and I have to solve it because if I don't I'll might have bigger and really dangerous troubles and then maybe no turn back. And it's all about my selfsteem and my feelings and selfdestroy and shitty bad crap like that. And that's like...Something that keeps me away of being happy and/or thinking clearly. I'm truly sorry, but I guess that's puberty ._. I hope so. That's it~
I hope someone reads this, really xD
So I hope I can get rid of all my problems and be here on dA and FINALLY do something ¬¬ So pray...And pray...and pray xD so I can be free ;-;